the grief of losing your best friend to time and distance and unresolved conflicts is hard - once the connection goes away it seems impossible to find it again, and you really have no choice but to let them go and grow into a new kind of life without them. don’t blame everything on yourself even if you did play a part in it because it’s never completely your fault - there are other factors that you probably didn’t consider. please be careful because things like this can be like fuel to hating yourself, but you need to be extra gentle because sometimes you do your best and nothing lasting comes out of it, sometimes you make some mistakes due to mental health or cirumstances and that‘s okay. you deserve a second chance at friendship even if it‘s not from that person, you deserve to forgive yourself, stop dwelling on where you went wrong and just give yourself moments to breathe and stop struggling against any painful feelings and just grieve and tell yourself it‘s okay, because it will be. what matters is what you learned from it, and in the grand scheme of things, this is a low point - but it will pass, you‘ll find some new friends and everything will be okay - everything you associated with them won‘t feel so painful anymore and even if the sadness never completely goes, you‘ll accept it fully as what it is and that‘s enough.

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experience i had today

If you want to write a dumb little story with a dumb little plot and ridiculously silly characters. No one's stopping you. Genuinely, no one should be allowed to stop you. Write that dumb story with your whole heart and don't hold back.

crying

Not exactly lolita fashion, but heavy on the ribbons and frills 🎀💝🍑

this is how i imagine twitter In my head

got a dumb ask the other day, (and again, the response to my sonic art has been mostly positive and vastly drowns out the hate, which is awesome and I super appreciate!) but it gave me an excuse to talk about something that’s been on my mind re: making gijinkas and black/poc characters in general.

hey did you know that the wellington airport in new zealand used to have a gigantic statue of gollum catching a fish and it’s one of the scariest things i’ve ever seen? if i saw this thing while i was delirious from a 14 hour flight with no sleep i would die on the spot

Zelda: Wand of Gamelon

what if you went to your normal job and they were doing a musical episode